I Just Wanna Be, But Not Alone

[I Just Wanna Be, But Not Alone]

[hippolotamus]

Every year I have this idea that I'm going to plan this out and write something profound. But it really just comes down to a few things, doesn't it?

❤️ There is no timeline (or requirement!) for coming out. Some people shout it from the rooftops immediately and some people keep it as their business forever. Both are valid and correct.

Ask yourself: Do I want to? Do I feel safe to do so? Do I have a plan if it all goes sideways?

🧡 Perhaps the most important point: nobody, and I mean NOBODY, gets to make that decision for you. That choice is yours and yours alone. Family, friends, partners, coworkers, teachers should never pressure you to come out.

💛 There is no timeline for “figuring it out”. Some folks just know and others figure it out later. Neither one is wrong. There’s zero shame in learning your sexuality in your 30s, 50s, hell even your 80s. The only “correct” time is when you say so.

💚 That being said… it can change! And that’s perfectly fine. No one would blink an eye because one day you declare you now like brownies instead of chocolate chip cookies. Or both. You learn more about yourself, you grow, you make more informed decisions. It’s all a process.

💙 Labels not required. Am I Gay/Lesbian? Bi? Queer? Aro? Whatever you decide, and are comfortable with, is a-ok. Even if that means no label at all. First and foremost you’re you. Not your preferences.

💜 A Special Lil note for the allies and supporters and others: This goes for anyone, but particularly those who didn’t figure things out (or feel like they could be open about it) until later. I say this as something of a late bloomer myself. Crying over Heartstopper? Suddenly adding all kinda rainbow merch to their house/vehicle/wardrobe? Going to Pride events? Making or sharing more pointed social media posts?

Yeah, they figured out they’re [insert label here]. Great, good for them but you’re sooooo over it. They’re X years old, why do all this now??? Like chill already.

Nope. You chill. Some of us are legit getting to experience this side of ourselves for the first time ever. And sometimes that is decades in the making. We’re unpacking a lot. So please hold your shaming and judgement. If it’s not hurting you or anyone else, for the love of everything just let them have this.

🩷 Resources! 🩵

The Trevor Project - thetrevorproject.org (Bonus: they have a Quick Exit feature built into their site for desktop or mobile in case you need to get out of their site pronto)

suicide.org - resources for US and International suicide hotlines http://suicide.org/suicide-hotlines.html http://suicide.org/international-suicide-hotlines.html

GLAAD- glaad.org

OK2BME - https://ok2bme.ca/

PFLAG - pflag.org

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[pasteboard]

hey netizens! i'm not sure how many people are aware, but youtube's been slowly rolling out a new anti-adblock policy that can't be bypassed with the usual software like uBlock Origin and Pi-Hole out of the gate

BUT, if you're a uBlock Origin user (or use an adblocker with a similar cosmetics modifier), you can add these commands in the uBlock dashboard (under My Filters) to get rid of it!

youtube.com##+js(set, yt.config_.openPopupConfig.supportedPopups.adBlockMessageViewModel, false)

youtube.com##+js(set, Object.prototype.adBlocksFound, 0)

youtube.com##+js(set, ytplayer.config.args.raw_player_response.adPlacements, [])

youtube.com##+js(set, Object.prototype.hasAllowedInstreamAd, true)

reblog to help keep the internet less annoying and to tell corporations that try shit like this to go fuck themselves <3

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[yr-tiktok-mom]

[orcboxer]

[hallbera]

I was entertained.

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I have no gumption to go into the office right now.

I’m mad at all of my coworkers.

I’m tired. I’m in pain all the time.

It also doesn’t help that I’ve been getting really bad headaches. And migraines. Yes they are different. Migraines are like… I can’t even describe them but they are so bad, I often end up sobbing on the floor or the bed. Nothing helps them. And I’m starting to feel when they are coming on, which of course puts me on edge.

My brother I live with was gone most of the weekend. I found out late last night he hit a young deer. It’s damaged the truck really badly. And the deer didn’t make it. My brother is upset on both fronts. His mood is really low. I wish I could help but he won’t even accept that he needs help so, I am just here.

I just deleted a whole section of what I wrote because no, I don’t need to complain about that. It’s pointless.

I leave for NYC in 2 weeks. I’m already tired. That’s what chronic pain does to you. It saps everything from you. I’m so very fortunate that I can take this trip, I remember what my life was like. I remember something like this was like a fantasy. I never dreamed I’d actually be able to do the things I’ve been able to do. I just wish I’d been able to do it when I was young and the pain wasn’t quite so bad. I am immensely grateful I’m going though. Especially because I’ve got quite the adventure half planned out.

This little punk has been extra needy lately. I also have to find someone to give her a lions mane shave. I tried. It’s awful.

On one picture she’s sort of on my butt, it was annoying, but I let her stay there till I had to pee. Another she’s snuggling my knee that’s under the blanket. She snuggled up to me this evening when I laid down to give my head a rest. And the last one she climbed up on me and wouldn’t move. That grumpy face is because I moved my face so she couldn’t lick it anymore. What?! Her tongue hurts!

Anyways, I’m gonna shut up and try to sleep. I wish there was some way of getting good sleep. If it wasn’t for the pain and insomnia…

I have been trying this weird visualization trick for getting to sleep and I feel like it would work a million times better without the pain.

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[audrocur]

wow millennials are glued to their i-phones and laptops so much they cant even be bothered robbing in person anymore!!! maybe these trust fund babies should stop phishing credit cards while sitting on their butts and go out there and put some elbow grease into their thievery!

[thesnadger]

[weaselle]

I know exactly what happened. Because it happened to me.

I trained for years to be a con artist. I told my friends and family that I wanted to be a magician, but that was just a cover for why I was constantly practicing sleight of hand. 

In junior high and high school, I would shop lift a bunch of candy on my way to school, sell it to kids at the morning break, and use that money to run a crooked poker game at lunch.

Finally, when I was 19 or 20, I felt I was ready, and I picked my first pocket. I was on the bus, bumped a guy as I passed down the aisle, got his wallet, super clean.

In the wallet was several hundred dollars. A huge first score, I had been hoping for a couple twenties. I sat there looking at the, like, 400 bucks, thinking.

That was my rent at the time. We were both on the bus. It was likely his rent too. Lord knows the only reason to carry that much cash on the bus is you’re on your way to pay a bill. We were both on the bus, you know? That’s not someone I was comfortable stealing from.

I tapped him on the shoulder and told him “hey i think you dropped this” and gave it back to him with all the money still in it. It was the first and last time I ever picked a pocket.

Picking a rich person’s pocket is a loosing game. They probably have credit cards and not cash, those credit cards probably have the best anti-theft measures their bank can provide, and you probably can’t get close enough to those people to pick their pockets unless you’re already rich yourself.

The people who’s pockets you can reliably pick are the people around you. The people who are also on the bus, who are in this same shitty situation with you.

As wealth inequality becomes more drastic picking pockets has very clearly become “stealing from other poor people” and it’s not satisfying. I want to steal from Google and Apple and Fox and Facebook and General Mills and Hershey and Tesla. Not the person next to me.

[ananicoleta]

Wow. This post went from funny to a life lesson in a way I wasn’t expecting, amd I’m not sorey at all.

[uberguber89]

See, unlike the capitalist elite, common criminals have a sense of morality and empathy.

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[nostalgicfun]

My boyfriend was on the phone with his dad yesterday so I went out to sit on the patio to pet the geese and play on my phone for a bit, and while out there I came across a comic of baby Grimace (yes, that Grimace) being sad because everyone hated his milkshake and saying he wished he never had a birthday. Then there was a follow up where tons of people had commented saying they loved the shake and wished Grimace a happy birthday, and that made him happy again.

This, for whatever reason, emotionally devastated me. I was sobbing. I was ugly crying so bad that even the geese waddled away side-eyeing me.

After a while my bf yelled from inside, "Okay, you ready for dinner?" and I was forced to accept I had to go back in the house a defeated sniffly little wreck.

My boyfriend, who has only ever seen me cry once in the whole year we've been together, looked horrorstruck. He assumed the worst. Someone got hurt. Something was wrong with my family. Someone was mean to me (a cardinal sin). The panic that washed over his face was unparalleled.

He, upon seeing me, (somewhat theatrically) rushed over and grabbed me by the shoulders. "What's wrong, what happened? Are you okay?" he asked, frantic. "What is it?"

I realized how ridiculous the whole situation was and just shook my head.

He was growing more panicked. "What is it? Why are you crying?"

I then had to stand there and look him, this completely normal human being, in the eyes, and blurt out "Grimace"

Confused silence followed.

"....Grimace?"

I nodded.

"...The McDonalds guy...thing?"

I nodded.

"What...what did...Grimace...do to you?"

I then tearfully recounted the silly internet comic that had absolutely broken my heart. And this poor guy--this poor, wonderfully sweet, nice, patient guy--kindly stood there trying to figure out how to comfort me that Grimace was not, in fact, sad. (Nevermind that he's a corporate mascot who isn't real)

This morning my phone rang just after 5am. It was my boyfriend. It was my turn to panic, to assume the worst.

I didn't even have time to say hello before he started excitedly yelling, "Look at the TikTok I just sent you! Look! Open it!"

Confused and not entirely convinced I wasn't still asleep, I opened the TikTok.

An official release from McDonalds confirming Grimace (who still isn't real) did, in fact, feel special on his birthday.

[nostalgicfun]

also while we were in the car headed to dinner I remembered the little panel of Grimace crying and I got all teary eyed again, and my boyfriend looked over and, with all the genuine care, compassion, and sympathy this guy could muster, legitimately asked, “Are you having Grimace thoughts again?” which I don’t think I’ll ever let myself live down

[nostalgicfun]

I expected this to get like 15 notes, not that 23,000 people would commiserate with me crying over Grimace, so here are some notes: 

1. if you also cried over Grimace, I am hugging you tightly and shooing away the Grimace Thoughts 

2. I showed this post to my bf yesterday when he got back in town and he read through the tags and comments. “These people think I’m nice? They don’t know I’m wretched. They don’t know I have you in my phone as Queen Scrungus” (this was followed by him bringing me a muffin “because you look like you needed a muffin, grimace girl”) 

3. for everyone stuck on “pet the geese,” I do indeed pet the geese! Especially Harold, the Resident Botherer. Our apartment backs up to a lake and the geese routinely escort us on walks and sit on the patio with us for coffee time and dinner! Goose pics for tax 

4. for everyone telling me to marry him, trust me, lord I am trying 

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[shut-up-rabert]

Be careful of Asexuals y'all, I heard they aren't fucking around

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[saywhat-politics]

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[firstfullmoon]

ALT

ALT

Kyla Jamieson, “In Exile I Draw the Tower Card,” in Body Count

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Forgot to say, I got the passport submitted and they say it’ll be ready 6 days before I leave 🤞they wouldn’t let me pay for rush or express. But they’ll let me pick it up at the big office downtown. 🙃 let’s hope it arrives on time.

Wednesday I had a migraine that was so bad I ended up sobbing on my bed for an hour before the drugs finally hit me hard enough to sleep. I had to take too many. I don’t like taking stuff unless I have to. But it was so bad…I got scared. But after a couple of hours, I woke up and I was sore from it. It felt like it was just hanging out back there, waiting to come back.

I have pain coursing thorough my body, but migraines are a whole other level of pain.

Vayda has so many different types of meows I wish I could record them all. I’ve been trying. She did a good bunch when I was working on shaving her. We are doing as much as we can, and then I’ll try to take her somewhere to get it done professionally. I’m not pushing her. But the meows are so funny.

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15 Questions and 15 mutuals

Thanks for the tag my dear sweet @apothecarose 💜

And @saraminia and @tyfinn thanks for your tags!!! And the lovely artist @lizzie-bennetdarcy 😊

So I’m gonna be a punk and answer in gifs ONLY, should be fun!

1. Are you named after anyone?

Originally posted by lov-eswift

2. When was the last time you cried?

Originally posted by nessa007

3. Do you have kids?

Originally posted by yourreactiongifs

4. What sports do you play/have played?

Originally posted by asaletad

5. Do you use sarcasm?

Originally posted by cocklesdestielfiction

6. What’s the first thing you notice about people?

Originally posted by fhotographys

7. What’s your eye color?

Originally posted by noonlight-stims

8. Scary movies or happy endings?

Originally posted by wellhellotragic

9. Any talents?

Originally posted by gracies-dzienny

10. Where were you born?

Originally posted by kikaiz

11. What are your hobbies?

Originally posted by love-of-alison

12. Do you have any pets?

Originally posted by statueinthestone

13. How tall are you?

Originally posted by vladdyskremlinqueen29misc

14. Favorite subject in school?

Originally posted by autumn-ravens

15. Dream job?

Originally posted by sweet-cider

Okay so tagging 15! @hippolotamus @chelle-68 @davesnothere @trackabandoned @leofdaeg-sand @freemantim @ramonaflow @eazythegriot @stephiehell @darkendelilahlibi @hopefulmisanthrope @ohclippy @mindsketches @palmtreepalmtree @redsimple

You can do word answers, if you like I just felt like doing gifs.

Also no pressure tag :) and an extra tag for anyone who wants to do this.