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Road trip essential!
I’m on vacation for the week. We are heading north a few hours. I’ll spilt my time. And I actually opted for a hotel for the second half because fuck as if I’m sleeping at the venue. Also I may have got the hotel because Red White and Royal Blue is dropping while I’m at the event and I want a space to just scream into my pillow and flail my legs while I watch fictional characters fall in love. Because even though I struggle with it, I’m 100% a romantic.
This amuses me to no end.
We had to make a short stop at my other brother’s house and this amuses me too.
Oh and we drove by a bunch of canola fields, they aren’t at full blossom yet but some of them will be close on the way home. I’ll try to get a picture. OMG as I was typing this, a field with a better yellow showed up!.
Anyways, if you know, about the time I wrote these fields, that’s one of them, before they get to their full bloom.
I got tagged for this July recap of music in listening to. Thanks @hippolotamus
What’s super funny about this is that one song plays a lot even in my radio Spotify and I do love it. But I especially love it when it shows on my lock screen which I just changed this weekend.
Music receipt (it fits Spotify, last.fm and apple)
He winks at the end of the gif. I got a thing about winking 😉 and yes I’m listening to it right now 😆
Tagging @apothecarose @trackabandoned @stargazer56 @jamilas-pen for a no pressure tag if you’d like to do this.
I’m sitting in my NYC trip dress, wearing my fav headband that I can’t wear anywhere. No hearing aids on and thinking about all the beautiful people I follow and see through the world and trying to battle this deep sense of unloveableness inside of me.
But hey I have the prettiest cat!
I do love her an immense amount. 💙😍
And she mostly tolerates me.
I went to a meeting this morning (not in this dress 😆) and walked around for 45 mins before being too tired and coming home. I’ve basically slept a good portion of the afternoon/early evening away. Don’t judge. I barely sleep as it is.
I’m very happy with the meal kits from this last week. I saved a lot of money and it’s pretty easy to do. This is the perfect thing for a horrible cook like me. This is going to be life changing. Food changing? This was my last meal and I loved it.
I’ve also been thinking of my trip to see P!nk and Noah lately. I’m watching a documentary about her and the Beautiful Trauma Tour (which I was at in Vancouver) and it breaks my heart how much she gives to us fans, and how much she loses, but I’m so proud of the love she gives to all of us and her team and her little family. I can’t believe I’m going. I still have to book a place to stay at and the train trip to and from Boston to see Noah. I really wish hotels weren’t so expensive. I prefer them over airbnb. I don’t like intruding in other people’s space and I just want the quiet and the freedom to come and go without worrying about waking anyone up. Also, I think I want to spend one or two nights at two specific hotels from certain fanfics I’ve read.
Speaking of fanfics, my 1-year ficaversary is coming up and I’m feeling some way about it. Not sure how to express it. Not sure if I’ll post something for it. But I am trying to figure out how to make a map…I have all the addresses but I’m not sure how to make some kind of graphic map. Yes, it’s fanfic related.
Also, I’m sorry I’ve been failing in the tags, I’ve been tagged a lot here and on the sideblog but I’ve been so riddled with fibro pain these past few weeks that it’s been a tough one. I’m hoping to try to get to some of them. But thank you for tagging me, it’s always a surprise and a warmth to be tagged.
And lastly, I’ve been thinking of the fact that my monster of a mother died at 45. I’ve just been thinking, if I make it to 46, I’ll officially have lived longer than her. She died a month and a half before her 46th. I have some theories regarding her and where she is, what she’s doing. It kind of blows me away that if she were alive, she’d be 80 in October. I’m really hoping this August with all the good things happening, that her deathiversary won’t send me spinning. It probably will. I mean the two worst people in my life died Aug 30 and 31st so it’s tough but I guess it’s better than having them split. The problem with deathiversaries of the horrible people in my life is that all the trauma and bad things are dragged into that day. Maybe that’s something only I experience. I’m grateful right now it’s not spread throughout the whole year.
I’m very grateful.
Well the first one was surprisingly good!
The second portion will be my lunch tomorrow.
My cat is cute as fuck.
Also, I can’t believe I have to lock down all my personal posts. It’s very fucking annoying.
I’m talking when strangers reblog my blabbing posts. You are not my friend don’t reblog my personal posts.
- Blythe Baird
Me, chewing on my Bad Decisions™ Bagel in the corner:
The Universe: What’s that in your mouth?
Me, chewing faster:
The Universe: I said, WHAT THE FUCK IS IN YOUR MOUTH
ramonaflow asked:
♾️🩵
Oh yeah but it’s hard to say, anything.
It was hard to pick a lyric from this one. As you know. Also, can I pick all the Ooo’s?
